30 November 2008

Do you still remember the first time you start to walk in your life?

I myself cannot remember the first time I try to walk during my early childhood. Mum said the first time I started to walk, I fell down when I played with a basket until my arm dislocated. I was so phobia after that till it takes time for me to start walking again!

Even though I cannot remember anything, but right now it feels like I'm like a baby whose trying to walk. I could feel the feeling of the first time trying to put on the foot on the floor. I'm a bit scared, afraid of the pain. I step down slowly, partially to be exact. It's only 2 weeks after the surgery, but I feel like I've not been walking for years.

Till now, I only step on partially. My left foot entirely feels nothing during the first time I step on the floor. And I fell down! Haha, no wonder babies always fall down when they first start to walk. I feel fresh, young..and realize, actually it is hard to walk. How great that many babies could make it, and you! You also could make it way back when you're a baby.

How wonderful to have back the feeling. The feeling which I cannot even recall back now. But it's great to feel young again :P
It's hard to balance myself, and luckily my right leg do support me much. Very much co-operative :D

Right now I have to challenge the babies. Rapidly doing the physiotherapy, thus I could walk as soon as possible. It's painful, but no pain no gain isn't it?

Past few days I went for my follow up, post-surgery. Open up the surgical sewing, and receive 6 consecutive injections at my left knee at 4 different sides which is too close. It was really different from IV injection. This kind of injections, I have to admit that it were really painful. And the doctor always said like this,

"Ok this one is going to be very painful.." he injects in slowly and repeat, "very painful..a bit more..it's going to be painful.."

That's really good for me to get ready, it's not sort of to psycho the patient to feel painful. (but it really was..terrible!)

And the doctor actually whispered to my mum,

"I'm amazed..all of my patients previously would be crying due to the injections. But could you see her face? So cool and steady! I'm amazed."


And only God knows how painful it was. Hehe. No pain no gain!

p/s: trying to walk with the help of crutches ;)

16 comments:

lop said...

aiyo..wt hppn 2 ur leg? Hopefully u will rcvr soon wuhuu =]

Ghuraba said...

Big3 Shafakillah!!!

i'm amazed too!

but u are right-->"la yukalifullahu nafsan illa wus'aha"

susu!, hai rew rew na kah ^^

Faisal Admar said...

That sounds scary. But if I got a painful injection now, I think I won't show any facial expression either. The pain in my heart is more painful than any injection in the world.

I cannot remember the day I was able to walk. No, I cannot.

I do hope you will get well soon. Be strong and my prayer will always be with you.

Liyana said...

saya tak ingat masa saya mula2 boleh berjalan...
tapi antara kami 3 beradik, saya paling lambat jalan... :D

As sangat tabah hadapi semua dugaan ni...
hope to see you next sem... :)

As said...

dear leka,
thanks..u should make up a choc cake for me :P

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dear wabi,
thanks wabi..(not yet learn how to say thanks in ur language..hehe)
thanks for ur prayer..

susu! ^_^

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dear faisal,
pain in the heart is the worst pain ever ;)

thanks for ur prayers

i am sure no one wud even remember the first time they walk :D

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dear liyana,
nanti if as jumpa liyana as greet u okay! hehe

syukron!

Akmal Azeman said...

my mom said, when i was a very lil girl (mayb tyme tu br bley jln kot), i walked on my TOES!!! ala2 mcm ballerina gitu~~ hahah!

anyway. no pain, no gain. we experienced it in many diff ways n those xperience always makes us stronger.

p/s: sy benci injection~! huuu

p/p/s: wah! my 1st komen on ur blog..sori it took me long enough. huhu

get well soon ya. :)

Jepah said...

jepah x ingat... tp umie ckp, jepah lmbt leh jalan... maybe sebab mase tu badan sgt2 tembam kot... huhuhuhu...

Anonymous said...

selamat menjalankan physiotherapy as.. :)

Anonymous said...

klw lah diya setabah as... huhu. same with the doc, i'm amazed too! :)

byk yg diya dh lupa sbnrnya, lg2 ms kecik dulu. diya cuma ingat bila umo diya dlm 4/5 thn gitu. jd klw ms mula2 nak berjalan tu, lgsg takleh nak recall. huhu. nasib lah ada gambar ms kecik yg byk ^-^

moga sumenya slamat utk as. ;)

Pumpkin Peroz said...

adehhhh~
cm sakit sgt2 jer
apepn be strong
like a a famous saying said
thing dat dun kill you will make u stronger

Amin Mansor said...

as, as online kat mane ni?ward ke?

izzahismail said...

i wish i remember.
but seriously tak ingat.

:)))

As said...

dear kema,
agak2 kalo suh menari ballet skang leh tak? :P kecik2 dah de bakat tuh, haha.

Yup2 diff people diff tests..as Allah gives us tests based on our ability.

Thanks for coming, and thanks for the wish ;)

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dear jepah,
betullah orang cakap, budak masa kecik gemok, besar kurus..and vice versa..hehe. Ye eh?

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dear szakif,
yelah encik zaki moga selamat semuanya kepulangan di hara raya aidiladha :D

physio ni dah lama sebati dengan as..heh

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dear diya,
i guess semua orang umur 4 tahun and above baru ingat..kan?

everyone ada kelebihan dan kekuatan masing2 yang tampak atau tidak..sedar atau tidak :)

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dear pumpkin peroz,
kmunculan sulung macam kema jugak :D
tq anyway
thanks for ur reminder..!

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dear amin..
as dah discharge la..
mati la nak bayar bilik ward if duk lelama kat hosp :D

As said...

dear izzah,
memang takkan ingat ah..confirm!

hahaha

i wish i cud remeber it toOO

Adlan said...

mula berjalan dlm usia 10 bulan. camne la baby ada memori nak ingat benda2 masa kecil tu. semua depend kt cerita dr ibubapa kita..

As said...

dear alan,
haha yup2 memang confirm tak ingat time jiwa tgah sangat bersih tuh.

semua kena rajin tanya ibu ayah la :D