berhidup dengan dia

Dia teman As sampai bila-bila. Dia sangat setia bersama.

I was not aware that Im living with it since few years back. Maybe since 7 years ago. Wow lamanya kami bersama~

Just after I met Dr. Cyril Toma from Prince Court Hospital, that he found this on me. Living with fibromyalgia. Muka As berkerut when he mentioned this to me. What is that on earth? Until he asked me to go back and google about this. (just click here to know more about fibromyalgia)

And it fits perfectly with all the symptoms!

Sebab selama ni penat As duk buat imaging kat badan ni nak check apa masalah dia exactly. Did I have PID on my spine. Did I have any tear in the knee. Mintak tolong radiologist buatkan ultrasound for shoulder joint jugak.

Mintak tolong staffs buatkan MRI dan sebagainya. Hoho. Penat je As tido dalam MRI. But at least I know that my cervical disc are all degenerating now. But I do think Im too young for this. Heh.

Yang paling best, surgery done but nothing happens. Malah makin worst. Semua sebab fibromyalgia. Ces. hehe. Akhirnya dapat jawapan kepada persoalan.

Yes, ini kali pertama as menulis tanpa explain pada kalian setiap medical terms. As mintak maaf. Dengan semua apa yang as belajar selama ni, as curious nape semua imaging modalities takleh nak show fibromyalgia in the images. MRI which specially design for soft tissue pun tak boleh show. Ultrasound lagilah tak jelas. CT scan etc tu lagilah jauh sekali.

But functional MRI (fMRI) boleh usha what is in the brain of fibromyalgia sufferer. How the brain response, and how the pain regulate. Macam sangat menarik. But, we dont have fMRI yet in Malaysia. Haih. That is such an interesting study. Cuma risau susah nak dapat data kat Malaysia sebab memang tak ramai yang sakit macam ni, dan tak ramai doctor aware to diagnose this. Acceptable lah, sebab rare. Dah jadi bias in study.

The same goes with the imaging using SPECT (single photon emission CT). Sama macam fMRI, die tetap study brain of the suffferer, where the blood flow is higher, and each region tu of course indicate different things. Tahla. As just suka cardiac imaging je when it comes to SPECT. The same goes to MRI, as lebih minat cardiac MR. Memang sangat best.

Dan as rasa sangat tah pape, sebab this is not my style of writing. I did not show my emotion directly this way, especially in this blog. Yosh...ape sudah jadi..wiiii...