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السلام عليكم ورحمة الله وبركاته

Salam buatmu dengan rahmat Allah dan keberkatanNya. Pesan buat diriku, diriku, diriku yang selalu alpa dengan rahmatNya dan dirimu yang disampingku.

Mungkin kebanyakan manusia menuturkannya saban hari kerana ia adalah rutin dan adat, tapi moga kita tergolong di kalangan mereka yang menyampaikannya sebagai satu ‘ibadah dan jua do’a yang penuh kasih sayang atas rasa pengertiannya yang agung.

Ketahuilah salamku penuh makna, do’a buatmu yang tidak dapat kulihat dengan mataku, tetapi yang ku ingat dan kulihat dengan hatiku. Kau yang ku kenal atau tidak.

Hari-hari yang dilalui penuh ujian dan warna-warna kehidupan, yang pastinya menjadi salah satu tanda keagungan Ilahi buat hambaNya. Ujian yang mempunyai peringkat berbeza-beza buat setiap jiwa yang pastinya kadang kala menimbulkan pelbagai perasaan kecewa, marah dan kadang kala hingga hilang keyakinanmu kepadaNya.

"Apakah manusia itu mengira bahawa mereka dibiarkan saja mengatakan;

"Kami telah beriman," sedangkan mereka tidak diuji? "

Surah Al-Ankabut : 2

Manusia tidak akan faham apa yang kau alami, maka usahlah timbul rasa marah yang mengganggu hati. Kami manusia biasa yang kadang kala menafsir bukan dari mata hati, menilai dari apa yang tampak, tidak mampu menyelami. Maka tika itu ingatlah, hanya Dia yang menciptakan kita, yang memahami ciptaanNya lebih dari segala-galanya.

حسبي الله لأ إله إ لا هو

عليه توكلت

Moga diberi kekuatan di dalam kesakitan,ketenangan di dalam kegundahan, keimanan tatkala hati berbolak balik.

Pengharapanku hanya kepadaMu!

S . A .C . R . I . F . I . C . E

P . E . N . G . O . R . B . A . N . A . N

Individu yang berbeza, pengertian yang berbeza, pengorbanan yang berbeza.

For eidul adha, it was a memorable sacrifice made by Prophet Ibrahim a.s. Celebrated on the 10th of Zulhijjah, the last month in Islamic calendar. Being born on this date made me think back again, the sacrifices I did throughout the year. May it boost my spirits, inshaAllah.

For those who performing hajj, taqabballahu minkum, ameen. Hoping to have a chance seeing baitul 'atiq one day, inshaAllah.

Well, don't forget to have takbir in these three days. Jangan hanya eidul fitri yang dibesar-besarkan, namun eidul adha disisihkan. If they were to be compared, takbir for eidul adha is required for 3 days continuously. Sepatutnya ia diraikan lebih meriah... Eidul fitri hanya sehari, bukan sebulan yang diamalkan oleh masyarakat kita. Hmm..

Salam eidul adha. Allahuakbar, waliLLahil hamd!

Wallahu'alam

p/s: I've started to mix the languages. Oh, my...

ulil albab

When I was about leaving a friend’s room going to mine, I saw a friend acting a bit weird. She’s looking for something and walking around. I wanted to ask, but,

“Hmm, takpe dulu kot.” I talked to myself and I went to my room.

After a while she came into my room, look out through my window and a bit ‘mundar-mandir’ I should say. I was on my way to take ablution for maghrib prayer. To think that I have to ask why, I did not wait for any further actions and asked,

“My dear, kenapa ni? Tengok ape?”

“Erm, perasan tak matahari tu dah terbenam exactly at that point?” She answered me and showing her finger through the window.

“Yup, it was changing starting last November. As perasan sebab dulu cahaya matahari petang tak masuk bilik as, tapi since final exam dulu die dah berubah sket.”

I was a photophobic person naturally, my eyes cannot be exposed to light more than it could and I cannot open up the curtain if it is a bright day. My eyes are very sensitive to light, thus, when the direct light suddenly get through the window, it makes me wanted to see where is the sun located recently.

And then she told me on her story, the same goes to her (except the photophobic story). When the light exactly goes into her room, she became curious. And I got what she meant. I am thinking of the same thing one month ago and I have asked few friends, but no one replies me and left the question unanswered. It left me to forget about the sun for a while until this friend came and asked. Iforgot maybe because it has became a routine. I will discuss about the ‘routine’ things later.

“So, does it mean kiblat kite berubah?” She asked.

Erk, what I supposed to say. “My dear, I was thinking about the same thing tapi as pun tatau nak kata macam mana.” I’m giving her the true feeling of me. Nak wat camne, jahil jugak. Ilmu di dada tak seberapa.

“Kiblat kita kena tengok matahari terbenam la kan?”

“Supposedly..kiblat sekarang ni pun as guna kompas je.” Saying and looking at her. We both suddenly being in silent mode. Thinking, looking to the sun.

“Jom, nak pi amik wudhu. Pasni kan ada discussion.” Saya mula mengajak tidak mahu berlama-lama lagi.

We get together going out from the room. At the door, I look at her in a glimpse, looking at the other side and said to her, “Dalam Al Quran surah Ali Imran ayat 190, sesungguhnya pada penciptaan langit dan bumi, pada penggantian siang dan malam, ada tanda-tanda kebesaran Allah bagi orang yang berakal.” No further explaination from me hoping she would understand the meaning behind.

After maghrib prayer, I think again over this matter. Not exactly about the kiblat, but relating to the verse 190 of suratul Imran. How much have I looked over and ponder about the ayatullah (signs of Allah) from His creations. Everyday it was just a routine to look at the sunrise and the sunset, the trees and the rains that pouring, nak-nak musim tengkujuh ni and everything. Either it has given me the ‘ibrah to wonder about or it was just a meaningless routines which I follow everyday.

The same goes to the case of wearing hijab. We’re trained to wear hijab since our childhood which then when we grew up, wearing hijab is a routine without we realize we are actually doing the ‘ibadah to Allah. Doing it not assisted with niat, it was useless. Just because of routine. Alangkah ruginya!

Teringat perbincangan bersama teman dan seorang mas’ulah yang dihormati sabtu lepas berkisar tentang permulan awal an naba’ yang banyak menyentuh tentang alam semesta, yang jika diamati ‘alam ini, sepastinya bergetar jiwa-jiwa.

Kata Syed Qutb dalam kitab tafsir beliau, fil zilaal,

“Bangunlah. Lihatlah.Tolehlah. Fikirkanlah. Renungilah…sesungguhnya di sana ada Tuhan. Di sana ada tadbir. Di sana ada takdir. Di sana ada ujian, dan di sana ada beban. Di sana ada perhitungan. Di sana ada ganjaran dan sesungguhnya di sana ada azab yang perit serta nikmat yang besar.”

The monsoon this time, not just affecting kawasan pantai Timur, but also the other region such as Johor and Malacca. As in surah an naba’ itself verse 14-15,

‘Dan kami turunkan dari awan, air hujan yang tercurah dengan hebatnya,untuk Kami tumbuhkan dengan air itu biji-bijian dan tanam-tanaman.’

It shows the rahmah of the rains. But also it could come as a ‘bala’ (cannot find exact word in English). NauzubiLLah.

Pada ‘alam ada maksudnya tersendiri tentang kekuasaan Maha Pencipta buat mereka yang mahu berfikir. I really Allah hope that Allah will always help me in my way of finding Him, searching for the love which I long. And for you too, amen.